My first C-Section

OK, not MINE. (That would be a bit weird. And probably not make any sense.) I mean, my first time seeing one performed. For those of you who have ever wondered what the C in C-Section stood for. It's NOT Cesarean like some of you think. It's, "crazy". Bat shit crazy.

Allow me to elaborate on this further. I generally do not have a weak stomach. I am not afraid of needles. The sight of blood doesn't make me faint. I watch them draw blood when I donate. I have watched my own surgery on my arm (mole removal) and a part of my toe nail removed from my big toe. (Sounds horrible doesn't it) I watched open heart surgery, brain surgery, hip bone replacements, and cataracts removal. I have seen actual death videos, as well as the Y-incision for autopsies. I even dissected cow eyeballs and hearts in biology class. While a bit gruesome and stomach churning, I generally handled these events surprisingly well. And recently I have seen in detail, birthing and water birthing. I don't enjoy this stuff by any means, but I could get through them and learn a lot about the human body and our inner workings. Knowledge is power!!! And it's truly fascinating stuff.

However, a C(razy)-section, is just crazy. I DID not handle that well. At all. You see, Carlie and I in our quest for knowledge in all things "child birth" began watching lamaze videos, and child birth courses. We want to be prepared for Jayden's birth day. And we thought a Cesarean Section would be another interesting subject to study. So Carlie convinces me to watch one from start to finish, and it ended up with ME almost hitting the FLOOR.

See.. what happens here, is something goes wrong during labor and the doctors feel it's necessary to perform a C-Section, and they make a very long cut across your abdomen, and being cutting and clamping layers of fat and muscle to get to the uterus. And I watched all of this. Again, I did surprisingly well during the beginning of the procedure. Then all hell broke loose...

About the moment they broke the amniotic sack, there was a horrible gushing of amniotic fluid out of the mother's stomach as if a sprinkler had ruptured in your front yard. I believe it was at this point, the surprise of this put me in to shock, and I suddenly got very nauseated and increasingly dizzy as I watched them pull the child out of this hole in the mother. I don't remember much, other than trying to refrain from throwing up, and I remember Carlie attempting to hold me up before I hit the floor. I WAS NOT doing well. After 20 minutes of laying on the ground in the fetal position, I finally got my bearings and decided I should watch something like paint drying to get the images out of my head.

I am surprised I reacted in this manner. I really did not see that coming. But I am confident I cannot see one of those ever again. Furthermore, I do not want one performed on Carlie if we can help it. And if, god forbid, they have to perform a C-Section on Carlie... I absolutely cannot see it. And I will tell the doctors, "I tried to watch it once, and unless you want to pick me up off the hard floor... i'm fine and dandy up by Carlie's head."

Crazy. Just crazy.

The end of my current life

Ok, so it's not that bad. My life as I know it is ending, and the new one is beginning. The journey in to fatherhood. Something I have never experienced before. No more late night parties. No running off with Carlie when ever we please. No more band. It's time to grow up.

And believe it or not, i'm ok with that. I think I will really take to this whole Dad thing. For some reason I feel like i'm ready to take up the challenge. But that doesn't mean i'm absolutely terrified at the same time.

Jayden is going to be born in a little over a month. It's funny, because when I look back at my life a year ago, I couldn't even imagine Carlie being pregnant. And now I can't imagine her NOT being pregnant. I'm so used to Jayden kicking around in her stomach. But soon, he's going to grace us with his presence. I honestly believe I will do just fine with him when he's home. Carlie and I will bring him in to the most loving home and family. That part is great. And I will learn a lot... even how to do the whole poop diaper thing.

No, it's not raising him that absolutely terrified of. (It's still a bit frightening) But it's the day he comes that has me anxious. I haven't done this before. I have to watch the one I love go through a miserable amount of pain. That in itself is not easy to watch. Furthermore, i'm going to feel pretty useless. I don't know how to help her. I definitely can't help the doctors. I'm just the "guy in the way". I don't know what to expect. Entirely. I do feel a lot better having watched some of the instructional birth videos and what to expect in the delivery room. I even know some of the medical jargon used in the room so I can pay attention. But i'm generally the anxious type. The fear of the unknown. I'm like a cat. I'm nervious and anxious as hell about it. I may even be scared, but i'm so damn curious I always check it out.

With that said, i'm sure i'm going to be a complete babbling idiot in the delivery room. I'm going to be a nervous wreck. Confused. Out of it. Stressed. Anxious. It's the stupid kind of thought process where you worry about literally everything down to whether or not you drop the poor little kid on his head when you attempt to hold him for the first time. You get so wrapped up in worrying that you are going to pass out, I can see how it's easy to miss the moment completely. Even if you DON'T pass out. So what am I going to do?

I have absolutely no idea. I'm just going to get through it. I'm going to be there for Carlie, because it's about the only useless thing I can do. Being a guy sucks sometimes, because you're just expected to be there and support them. We don't have to go through all the pain and agony of child birth. And we constantly get railed for it too. That's not fair. You hear the cliche, "I would take away her pain if I could." And I bet a million women would call shenanigans if you said it. But even I have thought those same things up in my head. And not only do I believe it, but if I could prove it.. I would somehow. Regardless, I have no way of really experiencing what she will feel. I'm just the "dumb male" who got laid, knocked her up, and didn't have to suffer through it all.

I'm sure this will be a lot easier for me to manage the 2nd time around. I'm the sort of person that becomes comfortable with change when i'm experienced in it. This is so completely new and foreign to me, the first time through is going to be a head trip. A little over a month to go... man i'm so excited.

And terrified. lol

I only have one thing to say...

This is the biggest robbery of tax payer dollars in the entire history of the United States of America. Even when the overwhelming majority of Americans strongly disagreed with the proposed bailout bill, our representatives decided to LEAD us, rather than speaking FOR us. They do not represent, us the people. They represent the corrupt actions of capitalist businessmen in Wall Street.

I am deeply saddened by this historic day, and for the American Dream, never to be realized by my children.

Bailout? FAIL!

Ok, folks. I seriously need to rant here. I am about to lose my damn mind. I gotta tell you, i'm not a financial genius. I'm not an economist. I'm not a stock broker. I'm simply your average Joe. A tax payer. An American. An honest American, making an honest living. But if there is one thing i'm not... it's stupid. I'm not an idiot. So now that we have that covered, let's get to the point.

The bailout bill failed yesterday. FAIL. Now, don't get me started on the partisan politics that goes hand in hand with this one. That's another blog post. What I want to talk about is the bailout itself. I have spent my free time doing nothing but following news, reading blogs, scrutinizing news articles, and paying attention to the market. I have listened to the partisan politics involved. I have watched interviews with the presidential candidates. I have watched Paulson and Bernanke closely. I have paid attention to all the press releases from speaker Nancy Pelosi. I have seen some of the smartest economists and financial advisors like Suze Orman discuss the importance of the bailout bill. And I gotta tell you, if I had hair I would pull it all out.

Listen up people. And listen good. We are all feeling the pain. For those who say main street isn't feeling the pain "YET" (the whole impending doom scenario.. god get off it.) we already are. Every American who has ANY IRA with investments in stocks has seen their portfolio turn disastrous. This is particularly scary for folks close to retirement. And the pain is just beginning. We all get that. Those who DO NOT support the bill are FULLY AWARE of the fallout that will occur. But you have stupid ass media monkeys pointing fingers at tax payers (like me) who don't have a clue in the slightest what will happen if the bailout fails. Oh yeah?

So they scream pain and suffering after the bill failed in the House of Representatives because the stock market took a -777 point hit. This was calculated to be an aggregate 1.2 trillion dollars lost in the market. However, not the worst PERCENTAGE drop we have seen in history, it was still rather painful. Especially on our retirement portfolios. And they use this to say, "Ha! See!!! Not only does Wallstreet need this bailout.. ALL of us do!" OH yeah smart guy? That's why TODAY, as I am typing this, Wallstreet is in the middle of a deadcat bounce 400 point rally. The MARKET is CORRECTING ITSELF! Yes, it's painful... but smart people who GET IT (like Ron Paul) have stated this is HOW the market should correct itself. It's called.

LIQUIDATION!

Overvalued assets on the markets were sold off at a loss and left for scraps. So what happens? The market rallies over these "scraps" and they gobble them up at "fair" prices. This is a small example of what is needed to happen to straighten out the cratered mess on Wallstreet. You CANNOT pump 1 trillion dollars BACK in to a market, and expect the entire world to sustain itself around price fixing. Why in the hell can't you people get your brains around this? You know what happens when you price fix? You implode. This was a big problem back in 1929 when the stock market cratered then. And when your financial system craters, the banks stop lending, and you go in to a recession and in the case of the 30's, a depression. Are we going to see that today?

NO! Even without a BAILOUT you wont see a depression like we back in the 30's. The economy is very different today. It's global. The whole world feels it. But there is a lot more money floating around, and it's all because of trade. Despite what some folks say, trade isn't going to completely stop. Even in the aftermath of a complete implosion of our financial system. It's going to be rough yes. Credit is hard to come by. Buying a house is going to be nearly impossible. Getting any kind of loan is going to be impossible. But this needs to happen. Seriously, think about this for a second...

Everybody... EVERYBODY admits the system was corrupt and over valued. We all (WE ALL) road the super financial bubble. Our stock portfolios showed it. And it's absolutely amazing to me that every single "financial genius" out there will say the system was REALLY in bad shape, and then SUPPORT the bailout bill by injecting money in to the market to make it as close as possible to the way it was before? Bailout or no bailout, there will be suffering. That's just the harsh truth to all of this. More people will lose their homes. More people will lose their retirement. More people will lose their jobs. It's unavoidable. So let's stop with pointing fingers, and figure out how to soften the blow on the people who are effected... main street. Your tax payers.

This is what happens when your financial system controls the economy folks. The federal reserve act was unconstitutional, and now we are seeing the effect that our founding fathers warned us about:

“I believe that banking institutions are more dangerous to our liberties than standing armies. If the American people ever allow private banks to control the issue of their currency, first by inflation, then by deflation, the banks and corporations that will grow up around [the banks] will deprive the people of all property until their children wake-up homeless on the continent their fathers conquered. The issuing power should be taken from the banks and restored to the people, to whom it properly belongs.” - Thomas Jefferson, Letter to the Secretary of the Treasury Albert Gallatin (1802)

Comments? Anyone? Did ANYBODY pay attention?!?! Private Banks DO control the issuing of our currency. It's called the Federal Reserve. Passed in 1913 while most of congress were out for a the holidays. And the Federal Reserve is far from anything Federal. It's a lie. It's a trick. We all got ninja'd. Furthermore, during war times, we were tricked in to paying taxes to get through it. Which in itself, is unconstitutional. The government is larger than it was ever intended to be.

The fact that Bernanke argued with Ron Paul by quoting the constitution and stating "The authority for Congress to coin money and to regulate the value thereof found in Article 1 Section 8 of the US Constitution" made me blurt nothing but obscenities for an hour. First and foremost, congress is not solely responsible for controlling our currency. They BORROW money from the "not so" federal reserve on INTEREST. This is what our founding fathers warned us about. And what the constitution suggest is the authority to COIN money and to regulate the value thereof. COINS. Not an arbitray value in a fiat based economy. Our monetary policy is complete shit, and all it does is contribute to the mess on wall street. Which leads me to my next point,

Inflation. Come on folks. Even before this financial mess started, we were already watching the value of the dollar plummet to it's lowest levels in history. Do any of you remember that? What do you think happens when you suddenly inject 1 trillion more (out of thin air) in to the economy? Are you honestly going to stand there and tell me that the value of the dollar wont drop even more? So not only are american tax payers required to flip the 700 billion (which i'm sure will somehow end up over a trillion) bailout bill in taxes, BUT WITH INTEREST, we will also feel the pain from salaries (if you're lucky enough to have) staying at the same level during a recession, while the devalued dollar inflates the markets even more. It's a 1, 2, 3 punch in the face for middle-class Americans.

You are going to feel the pain regardless. Bailout bill. Golden parachutes. Corrupt or stupid CEO's getting rewarded for it with 20 million dollar severance packages. And every single middle class american is agreeing to a bailout bill to what...??? I'll tell you,

You are stuffing money in to the pockets of those who run businesses. You are trying to stuff money back in to stocks to fix retirement. You are bailing out a company who didn't give a shit about you when you were about to lose your home and couldn't pay your bills. While at the same time, devaluing the dollar, paying it back with interest all the while, the entire market is inflated.

Every fiat money system in history has collapsed. Every single one of them. It's just a matter of time. We are all on the road to a complete economical collapse. Many people have warned us. But people just don't pay attention. People don't use common sense. Apparently senior lecturers at Harvard agree with me. Though not directly, at least I know my logic isn't entirely flawed. Just pay attention and ask yourself some of these important questions. Really...

Is the bailout plan really a good idea?

I guess i'll ask my unborn son when he's a taxpayer.

Amazing how the truth creates silence

Obama's Email Hacked

LOL!!!  Every once in a while, you need a good dose of humor.  Especially when it comes to politics.  I love the ONN!!  :)

1.) CEO 2.) FAILURE??? 3.) PROFIT!

Apparently i'm in the wrong damn business. I should be a CEO. Not even a good one. In fact, I should be a terrible one. All you have to do is drive a company straight in to the ground and you walk away with a 9 million dollar severance package and stock options if you sold out.

Rumor has it, that is exactly what is going to happen with AIG CEO Robert Willumstad now that the fed rescue package to keep AIG floating in a pool of FAIL. Seriously, this isn't the first time this assinine "exit package" has been awarded to CEO's who watched the company implode. This seems to be the new trend. Take the helm of a new company, milk it for what it's worth or sell off intellectual property, abandon ship and move on to the next company. OR you can just watch everything burn until the company has no choice but to sell off to Bank of America.

Most of these CEO's have only been with the company anywhere from weeks to a year or two. Only in America. Only in America can you completely destroy a corporate entity and be rewarded for it. And we aren't talking small fry here. We are talking about MASSIVE companies. Merrill Lynch? AIG? Lehman Brothers? Fannie & Freddie? Bear Stearns? These are all massive failures and somebody is almost always capitalizing on it. How screwed up is that?

I work my ass off to make an honest living. By doing a GOOD JOB and taking care of my companie's network infrastructure, I ensure we can do business in the technical realm. If I don't do my job, or do it badly, I get fired. But in a position where the CEO is supposed to lead a company in to the future and ensure it's SURVIVAL, they blow it apart and get millions of dollars out of it. How is this right? If there has been foul play, these bastards should get prison time. In the case of Enron people get what they deserve. But seriously, these CEO's are getting massive incentives for being a complete failure, while their employees are out a job, and now they can't afford to pay their mortgage. The problems are compounded.

And you have the neo-conservative party making tax cuts for these bastards. It's the middle-class people who are getting the SHAFT! How about a little help down here eh? This philosophy that wealth will trickle down to the tax paying majority is a complete failure of logic. It's time to start RAISING taxes on the wealthy, and especially larger corporate entities. I don't want to hear anymore that this kind of taxing would stagnate the growth of corporate entities. You're small business, Mom & Pop shops, will be able to grow a lot better with an income/earnings TAX HIERARCHY.

But what the hell do I know? I would probably be a SUCCESSFUL CEO and make my money the honest way. I wish our country worked that way.

SPORE

Spore, an Electronic Arts game, developed by MAXIS is going to be released on September 7th, 2008. (My Birthday!) Only a couple weeks away! I gotta tell ya, with all the crazy stuff happening in politics lately, this game is going to be a refreshing escape for a while. Looking forward to starting my OWN government and flying in to the galaxy to do my own thing. I couldn't ask for a better birthday present! I can't wait...

House Closing

The time has finally arrived! We are closing on our house today and about to get the keys. It has been blood, sweat, and tears getting to this point, but well worth it. A whole new world of stresses and fears will open to us, but we will own a house and it makes everything worth it.

Now we need furniture.

I lost faith in humanity

Recently on DIGG.com, a news story regarding a horrific beheading on a grayhound bus en route through Canada was submitted and quickly gained a lot of attention. The story is gruesome and I was sick to my stomach for hours. With something being so horrific and commited by a mentally psychotic individual, I would have thought people would be sympathetic to the victim and his family. The story itself is disturbing, and I found myself questioning what is wrong with humanity? But just when I thought it couldn't be any worse, the DIGG community made appalling comments with reused uncreative puns.

I don't take myself too seriously. I don't take a lot of things in life too serious either. I laugh about everything, because it's therapeutic. But this isn't one of them. I don't find the jokes and puns amusing by any means. An innocent young man was sleeping on the bus when he was stabbed 50-60 times and beheaded with a hunting knife. This innocent victim was on the bus to visit his family. He had a family. But that doesn't matter to the insensitive dolts on DIGG. I can assure you, they wouldn't be laughing it up if it was a family member of their own.

I made my own comments about this being no laughing matter. Why the hell I wasted my time and energy trying to make a statement to complete idiots, I have no idea. But I was accused of being uptight. I think that's the first time I have ever been labeled uptight in a setting like this. Perhaps I really was uptight. I probably still am. But don't I have a reason to be? Should I feel guilty because I am showing compassion?

Compassion. What a funny word. I don't think our species understands the meaning anymore. Maybe people are so desensitized in our society, these things don't phase them. Maybe humor is just a therapeutic way of dealing with something awful.

Regardless, i'm not laughing.

Texting in the nude

You almost bare it all when you text message. Did you know that? While a huge majority of text messages are sent as, ":)", "i luv u girl!", "lol ok", or even as harmless as "hey what's up?", not all of them are so innocent. I mean c'mon, let's face it, we have all typed up very personal text messages to friends, family, and spouses. You may not realize it, but text messages really aren't as private as you think they are.

Think about it for a second. How many messages do you send or receive that you wouldn't want anybody but yourself seeing? Hmm? And how often does that occur? I'm sure everybody is different, but we need to face the reality of text messaging and the content therein. Text messages are becoming easier and easier to type. With clever phones equiped with full qwerty keyboards we can text entire emails on them. So if an email is treated with privacy in mind, don't you think a text message should? Just what am I getting at?

Simple. Text messages don't require a login. They don't require a password. So if you aren't locking your phone, just about anybody could browse through them. Text privacy is severely overlooked. How many times has your friend or family borrowed your phone to make a phone call? How many times have you swapped phones to check out the cool features? How many times have you lent your phone to somebody so they could call you, or vice versa? How many times did you leave your phone at your desk or on the table when you had to use the restroom? Have you ever lost your phone? With all of the scenarios considered, do you see where i'm going with this?

A buddy of mine bought a new phone and I was checking out the features. Un-be-knownst to me, there were private text messages in his box. Font sizes on phones are generally squished down to fit an entire paragraph on the message preview. So without even trying, I got a big dose of personal reality, and none of it was my business. But who really thinks about these things? It's not until later you realize, "Oh shit... I let him use my phone and I was texting his girlfriend about bra size last night!"

Not only do you have to worry about your own phone, you start to give second-thought to texting somebody else. You never know if they will leave their phone somewhere or let the wrong person borrow it, only to stumble upon a private text message you sent. It's just too easy to access information these days.

And I don't think anybody is paying attention.

Mortgage Loan

Getting a mortgage loan these days is insane. It is extremely time consuming and you sign a never ending pile of mortgage documents. To make matters worse, i'm going with a 30-year fixed FHA mortgage, and underwriting is extremely...... thorough.

Easy Street is CLOSED. Lenders are extremely cautious and scrutinize everything! The days of 100% financing are gone. You need good credit, a perfect record, lots of disposable income, and a down payment. Period. It doesn't matter if you go conventional or FHA. Your ass better be clean, and wipe regularly. Even after being pre-approved, I am still signing documents and faxing bank statements. Anybody successfully acquiring a home loan in this market is extremely diligent. I have often wondered during this process how long it would take before I lost my mind and jammed a pen (probably the one i'm using to sign all the paperwork) in to my head. I'm sure I would be viewed as a more qualified borrower if I signed in blood.

I will be so happy when this is all said and done. I just want my house. I want the house for my family. I will look back at this moment and feel fortunate some other poor sap is going through hell, and not me. It has been an exciting experience, but i'm ready to sit down and drink a beer.

Ok, beer... and i'll invite JACK.



Who's with me?

Tour Guide

The next time I visit the beach, I want this pelican as my tour guide.

I Digg Google

More negotiations are on the table to acquire DIGG by GOOGLE for $200,000,000.000 USD. I'm not entirely sure what to think of this capitalist mess. Don't get me wrong, I love Google. A lot. But it seems every time a small, successful company comes up with a great product, you have either a.) Microsoft, or b.) Google bidding over it. Before you know it, the product receives a massive overhaul and it fails to function like it used to.

I think Google is better about this than most. I have no doubt they would do a good job with it. But one has to look at Google's core business model. AD Revenue. They "invest" in online social networks and user submitted news web sites with high traffic, because well, they have high network traffic. They want to capitalize on it. Not make it better. Maybe they will. But their first priority is ensuring they get the money flowing.

I also do not take comfort in any rewards based system for users who contribute the most to DIGG. This isn't penis envy. This is a heavily unbalanced biased system of users who have learned how to manipulate the masses to DIGG up their stories. Let's face it, the average Joe Schmoe isn't going to be getting a news article on the top stories on DIGG about Aliens landing on the front lawn of the White House and anal probing George W. Bush. Rest assured however, Mr. Babyman could shit in a box, blog it, and submit it with proceeds of 3,000 DIGGS in the first hour. If Google thinks rewarding a user like this with a small percentage of AD revenue is a way to run DIGG, I don't want it.

Leave it up to corporations to innovate. What a funny statement to read. Let alone type. I feel dirty. (If you can't sense the sarcasm) Time and time again, corporations buy and steal a product. This probably explains why some of the richest men in the world have MBAs instead of I.T. degrees and certifications.

DIGG will just become another victim to corporate capitalism.

The Dark Knight

Thanks to my buddy Travis and the boys over at Bungee, Carlie and I had the opportunity to see the Dark Knight in theaters. The sound and picture was incredibly awesome. As for the movie, it was by far one of the best Batman films ever created. Now don't get me wrong, I grew up with the original batman film with Jack Nicholson and I didn't think Heath Ledger would pull off an even similar performance.

Boy, was I wrong. It wasn't bad. It wasn't good. It was impeccable. His performance is unmatched for a film in that setting. What setting? Well, the Dark Knight is... Dark. It is simply different from the Jack Nicholson performance we all know and love. They simply cannot be compared. The two movies cannot be compared. They are the product of two totally different molds.

To be honest, I felt as if Batman was simply a secondary character to the Joker. Literally everything seemed to focus and circle around him. He is so disturbing, I found myself unsure whether or not I should laugh at some of his wise cracks and antics. They portray him as a very unstable madman, who cares about absolutely nothing but the game. He is truly insane.

While the movie was not Rated-R, they pushed the PG-13 rating. There was no blood or gore to recall, just a lot of implied death scenes. They leave a lot to your imagination, which is equally as scary. I wouldn't take my children to see it at a young age. This is a movie for teenagers and adults.

Anyway, the graphics are everything you would expect from a Batman movie in this day and age. The sound was awesome, and the acting was incredible. Batman is still extremely cool, and we all love Alfred. If you liked Batman Begins, you will definitely love the Dark Knight.

As for the recent comments on Digg regarding Heath Ledger and his performance as the Joker; Yes, alive or dead, he deserves an Oscar for one hell of a dramatic finish to his career and life. He went down with fireworks! I would give it Movie of the Year!

Contingent

I am very excited today! The house we made an offer on is officially contingent today! Carlie and I are very excited about owning our own home together. Our very first house. I am relieved to have a foundation for my baby boy, Jayden. There has been a lot of blood, sweat, and tears getting here but it has been well worth it. The house was built in 1987 and has 1830 finished sqft. It has 3 living spaces, and an open vaulted floor plan. Perfect for parties and playtime for the kids! It has a lot of cool features, like two fireplaces, alarm system, water softener, beautiful private fenced yard, and sprinklers!!

I can't tell you how excited I am to have a garage. Not to mention all the other wonderful things that comes with the home. I can't thank Shan and Toni enough for all their hard work. You guys rock!

Here, is to us! And Jayden!

$EX

Throw in a hot picture. Check.
Throw in sex. Check.
Throw in money. Check.

Obsession? Addiction? Stimulation?

$EXecuted, perfectly. Even the interwebz b0tz finds the keywords. How can you go wrong? It's totally effin annoying. A complete distraction. Unproductive. Yet we are so intrigued, curious, and distracted by anything sexual in nature. I gotta tell ya, I'm getting really tired of doing research online, only to be distracted by youtube videos, search results, blogs, and random pictures with sexual inuendo. Not to mention the endless amount of spam for it in forums, email, and MySpace.

Viagra, Cialis, Penis Enlargement, Drunk sluts gone easy, webcams, and stock options. Ok, well.. stock options in the subject line for escort services. (Hey it's the same thing!!) Where oh where, could my little point be.

$aturation. I'm really tired of it. Our species totally relies on sex & money to function. Without it, we are a total lost cause. I'm not saying sex isn't fantastic. It's just so, saturated. Used. Re-used. Over-used. I can't sit down at the comfort of my own computer desk and read about astronomy and black holes without some DOLT coming up with interracial slurs and inuendo for the exact subject i'm searching about. While some of this may seem funny (and are GREAT party lines), there is a real truth to the obsession and short-sightedness in our culture.

So you click past it, and move on. Right? Wrong. It's almost intrusive. While annoying, I just dealt with it. But with my new baby boy on the way, i'm starting to get a bit defensive and protective. I sure don't want to shelter the poor boy to death, but I can assure you there is a more than enough garbage to expose him to in a very short period of time, and the internet is a good place to start. I'm suddenly coming up with plans on where to strategically place the computer in the house. Implementing content filters, and codes for the satellite tv access. I never had to do that in the past. Hell, I never cared. I'm not a prude. I have seen FOX, Rated-R movies, pictures, and porn. I even bought $EX toys with my wife! *GASP*

C'mon, the whole planet does it. But it doesn't mean you can't be protective and annoyed by it at the same time. I am seriously starting to wonder what hope is left for a society so obsessed with it.

I just want to read about black holes.

Not watch it.

WoW Dis-Achievements? o rly?

World of Warcraft.
Levelz. Talentz. Skillz. Epix. Gearz. Mountz. And now Achievementz? srsly? Ok, ok sorry.. this is retarded. (See; retard) Don't get me wrong, I used to play WoW. A lot. It's cool. But I don't play it anymore... i'm not entirely sure why either. I just stopped playing it. I'm sure getting married, buying a house, and having our first child has something to do with it. But that's all it takes. After you spend time in, well.. real life, you look back at the game you adored... and you wonder, WTF? Achievements. Isn't that what World of Warcraft is all about?

World of Warcraft gives you a false sense of accomplishment. Everything. If it didn't work that way, you wouldn't be playing it every single day. I like to call it, the game of Dis-Achievements. Everything, and I mean everything makes you feel like you achieved SOMETHING. No matter how small. So what does Blizzard do? They add another wonderful system for making you feel important and successful. They cleverly called it, Achievements. I see what you did there.

But why? Why the hell do we play this damn game? When I look back at all the time I spent on one damn midget Mage, I gotta wonder; just what the hell did I accomplish? If the game suddenly vanished one day, permanently, and while millions of hypnotized wowzers aimlessly clicked at a black flat planel (or the login screen. Come on, we have ALL done it); what did you actually achieve?

I can't believe how many HOURS upon HOURS I spent playing that game. In the grand scheme of things, it was completely POINTLESS. You know, I guess the same could be said about all hobbies and games. You do it because you love it. I'm not going to rag on anybody for it. But i'm insulted Blizzard does it, yet again. They just feed the wowheads like they are all rabbid dogs.

Soccer FAIL

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I don't understand soccer. But I can see how this happens; Kick, Ball, Fast, Face. FAIL.